I Found My God!

The giant leap of Faith, I couldn't seem to take yet.
so many missing answers, more questions piling in my head.
Religion and Rules defined ways to be
but believer or not, the line wasn't defined for me.

Of science and reason, we speak trying to explain what is fair

yet, in dark times, we cut deals asking Him to answer our prayers

The stories were all so beautiful,  the grandeur and the mystic,

sometimes a moral at the ending, and sometimes just fantastic ,

but never did they inspire me enough, to believe in religion, that God had a face,

to believe that spirituality was in the rituals, and was sufficient to find his Grace,

It was not the face of God that I needed, but just some Faith in Him

to fight mockery and questions in the self contradicting times we live in 

In a quest I was, searching for reasons to push me towards Him,
for answers to my Why's, in every little thing my search would begin
and So I found a realization, an answer within
a path to make peace with myself, a side in me shall now win.

and I found it in the way I moved, I found it in the way I felt,
that this dance was going to be the bridge to my soul, under the carping pelt

beyond my relentless effort, after the physical activity that only brought sweat
by body began to give away to the delight of this dance, paying back my debt
As my face began to unfold with Bhavam
And my body began to sway to the Raagam
As my feet moved to the Taalam,
The strength and grace I felt in my Natyam
There was a void of nothing-ness I felt within
yet a single dot of concentration grew in

understanding life, its vastness and nuances
telling stories, old, new and magnificent

understanding that I can be so beautiful and strong
and depict white and black as right and wrong

I find myself at the threshold of a vast space, a beginning of a day

a long journey it is, a lot to achieve but at least I know my way

I can clearly see, that I found what makes me happy, I found the facade
I found what what I want to keep doing, I found my God...